"You didn't break her, darling." BMM Poetry

Is it really Monday already?  Geeze.  This week has gone by fast and slow all at the same time.  There were moments when I couldn't  seem to catch my breath and others where I felt like I was moving threw molasses. I am living in a nightmare right now and it looks like I wont be waking up for awhile.  I know my family will get through this mess because we can do hard things.  At least that is what I keep telling myself.  I have never been more grateful for makeup.  It has been my escape from reality.  

I have been doubting myself and my talents this last week.  I have been asking myself, "Why do I do this?," and "Does anyone take me seriously?"  My favorite has been, "What is the point?"  I am a pro at beating myself up.  With the last couple of months that we have had, is it any surprise?  

I started noticing that my self doubt was happening more often then not. Then on Thursday I went on Pintrest and this quote was randomly on my wall:

I read these words and it woke me up to what I was doing to myslef. I realized I didn't want people to look at me and think, "Oh that poor dear."  I want people to say these word about me instead. 

I decided to take take back control of my thoughts. I want to come out of this time in our lives stronger.

I made a goal for myself to do a different kind of makeup everyday this past weekend and I had to post a picture on my Instagram (@masterofnonemakeupmom) and Facebook of what I did. I used different eye shadows, fake eyelashes, and just went all out each day.  It was so much fun and even though I was stuck in bed all weekend due to neck and back pain from the accident, I felt pretty and strong.  I took that self doubt and turned it into confidence. (My therapist will be proud of me. Ha ha ha)

Here are the pictures I posted.

 Friday

 Saturday

Sunday

Every time I posted I was gaining back what my self doubt had taken away. Those questions I kept asking myself started to have positive and up lifting answers to them.  

Today was the last day of my challenge.  

Here is what I did:

Yes, I used all of these products.  I wanted to push myself and my creativity. 

Here is how I did it:

When you haven't been sleeping due to pain and horrible nightmares, red lipstick and concealer are your best friend.  I am also learning how to put fake eyelashes on.  Man are they a mess when you don't know what you are doing. 

Nothing makes your face feel and look skinnier then it really is like contouring and highlighting.

Gave myself a healthy glow.

My new obsession ins Urband Decay's Naked line. For this look I used their Naked 3 eye shadow palette.  I used Limit for the base shadow, Burnout for the entire crease of my eye.  Then a mixture of Buzz and Factory for the middle of my eyelid crease out.  They are all simple colors that make a strong impact when everything is blended together.  (Yes Urband Decay's eye shadow palettes are $54 each, but I got all three Naked palettes for $22!  I will tell you how in a later post.)

My new favorite trick to make your lashes look longer: Take a pencil liner of whatever mascara color you are using, (I only use black or brown) and color the lid under your lashes. It helps your mascarra work for you even more. It is scary at first because you feel like you are going to poke out your eye, but you will get over it.  It is such an easy trick that I do it everyday now and it makes such a big difference. 

The results:

I am in love with how it turned out.  I felt so sexy and confident when I was finished.  That is something I need to feel right now and that is okay.  I took back my thoughts and feelings.  I was in control again.  

I am not going to let these trials define me or break me.

  

Remember readers, I may be a jack of this trade, but I am a master of none.

Natalie